Evaluations

So I felt led to cancel my Facebook account this week.  Just to preface this story this is a PERSONAL conviction.  By that I mean that this is something God showed me and I don't try to put my convictions on you.  I pray that God who works in me, will work in you as well. But back to facebook...
Alot of people have asked me why I canceled facebook.  There are a few reasons.  I have really been feeling that God desires me to be free more in my life.  There are many things in life that can bring bondage to a person.  Bondage can come in many forms in our society.  From bad relationships to entertainment to addictions.  Another form can come in how a person spends his time. (I hope you're not offended but when I type about generalizations I use the masculine, and if you are offended, please stop being so PC :)  Does the amount of time that I have spent on facebook and the amount of time I know others spend on it appear to be a good, God-glorifying thing (I Cor 10:31 - Whether you eat, drink, or log in to the most popular website, do it all for the glory of God.)  The question that came to me is this "Am I being a good steward of the time God has given me?"  Not just on facebook, but everywhere.  If I'm not, then what areas is God calling me to be a better steward?
See I believe God is all about the take the log out of your own eye before the speck out of your brother's (Sorry I haven't told you about the speck Josh...see that was funny because Josh is my ACTUAL brother, lol)  As a pastor and minister of the Gospel I have learned it's valuable to be introspective. God began showing me some of my logs.  One was facebook.  Another was technology.  Another was television shows (not all shows, but shows that were just taking up time that could be used better, for the kingdom).  And there are many other areas.  But here's the thing: I don't believe he wanted me to just see these things and go, "Oh okay I'll manage my time better."  I believe He is calling me to give this up for His Kingdom so He can teach me how to manage time.  Too much of my life I've called the shots, and I've only given a certain part of my life to Him.  But that's not how scripture paints the Believer.  The Believer is to put off the old self and on the new. (Ephesians 4:22)  The Believer is taught that he should give up everything in pursuit for the Lord (Luke 14:25-35) Their is a cost to discipleship, but I believe I was lost in the comfort of America.
Now I'm not trying to make this bigger than it is, but this is something big in me.  And I know that years from now this will seem small in comparison to the other freedom God will show me my letting go of earthly things.  But this is where I am now.
More specifically on facebook.  Facebook isn't evil, Technology isn't evil, but when these things compete with God they can become tools of wickedness and sin.  Questions came up as I looked at my life, others, and some statistics: Is facebook an idol/ could it be an idol to some people?  Am I really friends with my "friends"?  Does facebook just make it easier to act like we care about each other?  Do I really need to know about people, or is their envy, pride, gossip, in my desire to read statuses?  Can I teach others (students) that facebook may not be the best thing, while saying it's okay for me?  Is checking facebook before doing anything else in the morning okay?  Is it okay that Facebook is leading to infidelity in marriages?  Is it okay that pedophiles are using it for their wickedness?  Can I be close to people and know about their life without seeing their status update? Am I truly investing?
Facebok can provide a false sense of friendship and caring.  I once knew a person who had hundred of friends on facebook but few in real life and was okay with that.  It also can cause a false sense of achievement in things like Farmville.  Why not apply ourselves to real things, heavenly things?  Why not take time to call the people who are friends and really let them know I care?
Some of you use facebook just to catch up with friends who are far away.  Great.  Some of you use facebook to minister to people.  Praise the Lord.  Some of you just think this is weird, well God sometimes moves in weird ways.
So I know that you may not be where I am and that's okay.  But this is where I am.  I am reevaluating things in my life and making sure that I am allowing the Spirit of God to lead me, to show me the things that are worth applying myself to.  Maybe these areas aren't part of your struggle.  But where are those areas?  Where are the areas where you need to allow God in more?  Where are the areas you need freedom?  I promise that Jesus doesn't want part of you, he wants all of you, and not just theoretically, but truly all of you.

I'll keep the blog going as long as God allows, I feel God led me to write it, so I will write is as long as I have the freedom to do so.  I'll also post things about my life and probably even life pictures (of my baby in 6 months), but please call me, email me, don't let our friendship/relationship just be words on a screen.  And most importantly, I'll write how God is challenging me and pray that my faith and life can influence you.

Beginnings

So I am starting this blog not because I think that I have something special to say that no one has ever said before.  In fact, in trying to name my blog I thought of about twenty other names that people already had.  I realize that some people blog because they do feel unique, which is great, but that's not me.  I also am not starting it out of pride or because I feel I have something you don't.
I am starting this blog because I love people, I care for others deeply.  I hate that we don't love each other and that people are so hurtful.  I hate when I am this way.  I also love God, more than I love people.  Now this hasn't always shown in my actions, but I pray that with each and everyday he will help me grow in my love for Him, which helps me love others.
Just to clarify, I love God the Father through Jesus Christ.  Now I know I've lost some people here, but because I love him and love you, I want you to know that I'm writing for Him.  I actually have felt led lately to attempt to share my faith and struggles and share more of who I know and how you can know Him.  I pray that God can use this as a tool.
So my final reason that I am blogging is because there are many who call themselves Christians who are not staying faithful to their faith.  They aren't finishing the race they started and this worries me.  What worries me even more is when we say we are believers yet aren't Biblical in the way we live our life.  Now I know that some people see this as being legalistic, but I don't.  Legalism is when you attach something else to Jesus Christ for your salvation.  By being Biblical I acknowledge that I love the Lord, and Jesus is my only hope of salvation.  But also, because He loves me, and I love Him, I will obey him, not in my power, but through the power of the Holy Spirit.  And I believe that I am not the only one who should strive for this.  Now I know that we aren't perfect and life happens, but when we fail, when we sin, when we blow it, does it bother us? Do we have conviction?  Do we have a desire to go towards the Father in spite of our sin? 
This is my question and this is why I'm writing today, may not be everyday, but it is today.  I want to see believers wrestle with their salvation with fear and trembling.  I want us to embrace the Word of God and the Spirit of God with every thing within us.  So if that's something you're interested in then subscribe or read or do whatever you do to a blog.